the biz

We quarreled again. And again, and again. And then he gave me a present. It was a porn movie. It occurs to me now that perhaps most women would not go all melty upon being given a porn movie, especially as a making-up-after-fighting gift. But for me, it was PERFECT.

We'd shot some video one night that had been screwed up because I forgot to turn the microphone on. He took that footage and turned it into a hilarious silent movie, complete with old-timey film effects and music. When he showed it to me I laughed my ass off the whole way through. Which I think was all he really cared about, making me laugh, but the gift was so much more too. And the more I thought about it the more perfect it was.

There are so many layers to it. On the most obvious level it reminded me of everything good about our relationship. All the laughter and silliness we've shared, the oh-so-delicious sexy play times, the way we've worked as a team. It told me like nothing else could that he wants to be my slave, that he wants just as badly as I do to get back to our "normal" life of perversion and pornmaking.

On an even deeper level it spoke to my Mistressly pride, which has been rather bruised lately. I know how many hours he spent working on it, and knowing how much actual work he would put into this gesture tells me that I can still count on him, even when it takes real effort. Beyond that he had to learn a new skill (video editing) to do it. Which tells me he's still willing to push past his boundaries, get out of his comfort zone and learn new things for me. These things are vital for the health of our Mistress/slave dynamic. I love him...adore him...and would want to be his friend and lover whether he were my 'slave' or not. But if we are to call this slavery then it has to mean something. I have to feel that he IS going to do his best to obey me, to give me what I want, no matter what I ask for. This demonstration that he's willing to work hard & learn new skills is exactly the proof my wounded heart was longing for.

There are other facets to it as well. I'll be able to use the video as the required monthly update on my clips4sale sites, so it spares me the work and worry of coming up with something myself. In this regard it's a seriously useful gift. I'll have a happy glow all month thinking of how I don't have to do that work thanks to him. And I have loved seeing his delight in not only learning something new, but in feeling like he's good at it. These past months of near-unemployment, being utterly broke and feeling unable to even help with the DIY work, have taken a toll on my pet's self-esteem. It makes my heart sing to see him sparked with gleeful optimism for a change.

I could probably go on all day about how many ways this porn-present delights me. But I have to get back to work; the long haul of turning sandpit manor into a lovely little home(cage) for my pet is not finished and the deadline is looming. But I think we've turned a corner now and for the first time in weeks I am looking toward the end with a heart full of hope instead of despair.

Sometimes we get some very entertaining mail. Such as this piece, which I found so uh, inspiring that I had to share it with the world..

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Good lord

That IS when my 'stunt double' would be filling in, no?

From: Mistress Erisiana Cherie
To: slv T
Sent: Monday, October 3, 2011 10:16 AM
Subject: [Fwd: ideas]

I just thought you would appreciate seeing this one for yourself, hehehe!

xoxoxxx
your Mistress

-------- Original Message --------
Subject: ideas
Date: Mon, 3 Oct 2011 13:16:17 +0000
From: [name withheld]
To:
Helllo Cherie!, love your videos!!! you can sit on my mouth any time for as long as you want!!! (LOL)here is a idea to use your slut, Tia. How about renting her to a big Black cock, deepthroat gang bang!! a video of her chocking and gagging on about 10 big Black cocks one after another in rapid succession would be a best seller!!! thanks for asking for suggestions.ps. you can sit on my face any time! ------
[name withheld]

Here's a couple of screen shots from our latest video clip..





I've been sitting on this video for ages, nervous about publishing it in case Shy later changed her mind about being in porn. But as she's now started modeling for other sites I feel it's silly to hesitate any longer. So when she's famous, y'all remember you saw here here first, eh? ;-p

Ok yeah I know this is old news by now...I was busy! Really busy! No, really! :p ...but I have to mention that the beauteous Delia, one of my VERY favorite porn-making tgrils, has won her second Grooby award for "Best Independent/Amateur TG Site". Which she TOTALLY deserves! As you can see...



Congratulations Delia!

In the 5+ years I've been working as a professional sexpot, I've encountered a whole lot of crackpots who call themselves "slaves". Take this example I encountered today on twitter:

@LadyErisiana woukd you kidnap me making me a slave ( foot , human toilet , or sex slave?) Never letting me escape

This is pretty classic useless-wanker fodder. The guy's fantasy is completely unrealistic. I mean, what could possibly make it worth ANY woman's while to undergo the actual effort and legal risk of ACTUALLY KIDNAPPING him? A super hot kidnapping scene can be engineered between two partners who know each other well and have taken the time and trouble to negotiate. And a female-led relationship, where the guy lives in total submission to his Mistress, that's doable too. But actually kidnapping a random stranger? Seriously, hasn't everybody seen at least one episode of CSI by now?

But guys like this, instead of integrating their kink into their lives in a healthy and realistic way, choose instead to troll random women online. The modus operandi is to send an absurd and uninvited offer to as many women as he can, and get off on the responses of the few who actually reply.

These guys are worthless in the truest sense of the word; they offer literally nothing to the women they're hitting on. They barely even recognize that we are individual PEOPLE. To them we might as well be cardboard cutouts; we are merely random interchangable props in the fantasy. Anyone with a pussy and a flogger who talks back will do. I understand this but...well...sometimes I get in a mood. You know, the kind of mood where one's upbringing as a well-mannered southern lady succumbs to the urge to rip a new one in someone who is just asking for it? And today was one of those days. So I responded:

@s3cgarci7 Go buy a porn movie dipshit, and quit pestering busy Women with your trolling for free wank material. {link to my porn site}

He (of course, why stop when he's getting his fix?) answers back

@LadyErisiana plz lady

At this point (still in my mood) I attempted to DM him, and realized he wasn't even following me. So the guy wants me to put myself to great trouble and effort, risking lifetime imprisonment, to fulfill his perverted fantasy and kidnap him...and he can't even follow me on twitter? How fucked up is that? I respond again...

@s3cgarci7 You're such a worthless little wanker that you're not even FOLLOWING me. *eyeroll* Why should I want anything to do with you?

Now I've fed into his kink and he wants to keep the interaction going, keep me coming back with the nasty responses. So he goes on the offensive, insisting that HE'S the "real" one, I'm some kind of fake and clearly not up to the task...

@LadyErisiana I don't mean like a session nothing linger that thus is above you or your profession this is real shit believe that
@LadyErisiana I made other ladies like you call me crazy weird over of a kind yid see your something that I consider fake

At least, I think that's what he meant to be saying. It's hard to understand at this point because his writing has gotten so garbled. And you know what? My money would be on the garbled grammer being a result of him wanking off to the humiliation & rejection of my responses. Because THAT is what guys like this are really after - the humiliating rejection.

You can tell he's a humilation junkie by the nature of the fantasy he proposed: human toilet, need I say more? And just for fun I went to his twitter page, to see what kind of talk he'd been having with others. Guess what I found there? This conversation with another random woman he'd trolled...

@CLAUDIAmeatsix Are you crazy to stalk me kidnap me making me a(foot, sex, or human toilet) Slave ? Not let me escape 4 reals no games

@s3cgarci7 i think this is one of the most suitable situations where i can actually say 'WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?' :S

@CLAUDIAmeatsix lol just using twitter to my advantage I ask like 250 ladies what I asked you in s daily basis

@s3cgarci7 greaaat. get good replies most of the time?

@CLAUDIAmeatsix its my ultimate fantasy what I asked you .problem no girl like that I can't seen to find I asked professional domiatrixes

@s3cgarci7 that made a whole lot of sense just then. (y)
@s3cgarci7 yeah, i don't think you'll find any girl that will share the same "fantasy" as you. sorry mate.

@CLAUDIAmeatsix crazy physco girls , mistresses no no girl no where I asked over 30,000 from all over the world

@s3cgarci7 i can see how you find it so utterly entertaining.

Do I still think that there are many fine and worthwhile men in the world? Absolutely. I have several in my own life and some of them are my real-life slaves and submissives. But as a sex worker I've been astonished to discover just how many worthless wankers like this there are, who fulfill their kink by using women while claiming to be submissives or slaves.